My weaknesses

I’ve been on a journey to discover myself before my kids arrive. I’ve devoured books like a starving child finding food—seeking information at a pace I can’t explain. My mind is on overdrive, chasing my truth.

This has raised my standards for myself and, naturally, for those around me. When others don’t meet those standards, I get frustrated. But I know this drive comes from within—it’s about living in alignment with my strengths and weaknesses. I’ve restarted workouts, begun meditating, and committed to the pursuit of greatness.

My Weaknesses

1. Mediocrity frustrates me. Like the people in my city who accept broken roads, bribes, and unfinished work. I can’t conform to that anymore.
2. I hurt my own feelings by seeking bitter truths about myself. It sometimes makes me think, “You weren’t that guy. How did you get here? Change.”
3. I can go dark at work—ignoring others’ opinions to get things done.
4. Low boredom threshold. If I can’t sleep, I read. I’m always seeking clarity.
5. Finances drain me. My brain shuts down when I look at them.
6. I can’t stand dirty, smelly, or enclosed spaces. They make me feel sick and they shouldn’t exist in the first place.
7. I’m brutal when firing people and quick to adapt without them. After losing my father, I don’t think anyone else could impact me in the same way.
8. I overthink. Sometimes decades deep.
9. I dwell on the past. I talk too much about what we’ve done instead of what’s next.
10. I hold on too long. Blind belief keeps me trying to make something work even when it’s failing.
11. I’m losing the ability to box my emotions when switching contexts.

I’m working on it—not just to improve these weaknesses, but to uncover more of them.